One hell of a day!

I spent the majority of the day feeling very confused, i was suprised when my mum and joe came round but also felt very difficult that i couldn't share how i was feeling with my mum. She is going on a well deserved break tomorrow to the lakes for a few days and i didn't want to put this upon her.

I spoke to trisha today and i felt that she thought i should terminate although she said it was my decision!

We went to the fpc tonight having decided that it was right to have an abortion, we waited over an hour to be given a pregnancy test and told by a dr that we have to phone a number on friday and be seen in a week or so. I was devastated that it would take so long and came home pretty pissed off, i then read a few stories about medical abortions to rob and i think it finally hit home to him what i would have to go through and how it would haunt me for the rest of my life.

So we have made the decision to keep the baby. I feel more relaxed (just my family to tell eek!!!!) but i am still dissapointed that this has happened at this time. 

I certainly don't want to know the sex of this baby, i want it to be a surprise.  I don't want to get big either so i am going to try to eat healthily and walk a lot. At least this time i am a married woman having a child, and won't feel so looked down upon hopefully!

21.8.08 00:39